Stuck between loving and promiscuity
Wanna be a lover
But I'm scared for ones pursuing me
I can be a handful
I'm full of inconsistencies
One day you're my heaven
Next week you're stuck with missing me
I'm serious about the grind
Frankly I don't have the time
Seen so many come and go,
It's been the cycle of my life
That's why when you cry
I sigh,
I don't know what to feel inside
Do I stay and settle?
No, I'll add a detour to my life
Now I'm back to sipping Tangueray
With the homies,
At Bliss night club
When this chick came and approached me with this nice ass
Her intention was getting to know me,
Took her to the crib,
Did the biz
The next morning
She hit me up,
I never hit her back, she texted me "you're foney"
Never gave a damn, back to grinding cause y'all know me,
Told my best friend about the story,
She just shook her head
And told me "one day you'll be lonely"
Damn
Hook (Heyse):
Even when I’m not around
She wanna hold me down,
I’m not ready for that now,
She gon find out x2
She been calling all day to see if I’m gon answer my phone,
But money’s calling now,
She gon find out
Verse 2:
Im numb to the pain I used to feel (so numb x2)
But best believe
I understand your grieving,
It kills
That little ounce of hope that you possess,
You want it to live on
Instead of living with regrets
But I'd rather tell you leave
Another would be good for you
I am such a wreck
Financially I'm not the dude
And you can say the money doesn't count,
All that amounts is the love
But where is the love if I'm unfaithful?
And I know that I'm unable
To be there when you need me
You call me and get upset
Cause I'm busy you wanna see me
The whole time I get pissed
Cause you're acting real needy
Threatening to leave me cuz I don't make time for we,
I don't understand, (Understand)
Maybe because,
I'm not yet a grown man,
I am still young
But it is in my plan (In the plan)
To be there in time
Currently I gotta handle mine
I hope you're here in time
Hook (Heyse)
Verse 3:
2 years passed since we broke up
Living the life I always spoke up
Money for days,
Enough to go nuts
So why am feeling like I am so crushed?
I got chicks now
But I don't trust them, (You can’t trust them)
They only want the rewards
So I don't cuff them
I pull out quick soon as I bust them
Then dip out quick, cuz I'm not cuddling
Truthbetold, I really miss my friend, (Do you really?)
I reminisce often,
About when, (I don’t think so)
You would trip out, I wouldn't listen, (You never listened)
Now I'm learning real loves close to non-existent,
I wanna hit your phone,
But I'm a tad bit,
Embarrassed
How we ended,
Not hopeful we'll be rekindling
This is exactly what I didn’t want to happen,
Though it’s hard to tell by my actions (yea, it’s hard to tell)
And it only makes it harder
Cause I’m seen as a role model
How can they follow me?
When I’m fucking up
Just as bad as folks that admire me
We all human though,
I never judge a man for his decisions,
Only how he grows after,
Never longing to be perfect,
I’m not an actor,
But I’m director of my life,
No looking backwards,
Gotta keep it moving forward,
Like I’m Ford tough,
And keep these lessons
Instilled mentally,
Love
Hook (Tiffany Bostick):
Now that I'm not around,
He wanna hold me down,
I don't want that now,
That's what he found out x2
He been calling all week to see if I'm gon answer my phone,
He learned his lesson now,
I bet he found out
credits
from Heyse - 2016,
released March 12, 2019
Production by: Scarecrow Beatz
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